I try to turn my hours around to a normal cycle and get up earlier, but the fact is its not going to happen until I have somewhere to be in the morning. So why try until Monday? I give up on readjusting ahead of time.

Ive become really obsessed with moving. Its all I think about now. I am going to check out a place on Mt Washington tomorrow and maybe another one in Eagle Rock and possibly one in Highland Park. MW and HP are better for commute but the one in ER is a dream. I have no idea why Im doing this, it seems so irrational to do this right now. I might wait a few more months. But the (14+4) st gang has been tagging the building like they get some kinda commission lately and the neighbors are bugging like nevah before. I want so much to live in a house again with a garden. I have not had that since I was a teenager. And my own washing machine and maybe even a dishwasher. And I also need a place for Mia to hang out outside while Im at work so I dont have to worry that she has to go to the bathroom really bad. And I also wouldnt mind being able to give her a bath with the garden hose and not in the bathtub because its really physically straining for everyone. MW has gorgeous hills that I want to hike in the AM as I am convinced that sometime soon I'll be an A type and will do many things before going to work like yoga in the garden and/or hiking in the surrounding hills (ahem, cough cough). One can dream yes? And I wouldnt mind switching from griffith to debs. Theres not a lot of great restaurant for a foodie (and lets face it - a foodie snobbie) in the neighborhood but theres that lovely, oh soooo lovely train that goes to chinatown and downtown as well as Pasadena. Im so mentally there that its hard to even clean this place as I feel like I shouldnt bother - Im already out! I hope I hope I hope. It may be a bit crazy to do though. But Im just going to see what happens.

I guess Im blogging like a mofo this week and its probably because I feel more free and relieved since I posted about how I felt about my traffic and who is reading etc. It may be a bit psycho control freak to think that I can bar some people from reading when Im posting in a completely open forum. None of this may be very rational and it may even be a little wacko but ya know, its my thing and Im not perfect and thankfully Ive really cut down on any efforts of trying to be.

2008-05-03

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